Yesterday I had a shock when I was told by a customer that he and his wife were a part of that horrible Arizona shooting, and that his wife had died. He said, I now know how you feel with the suddenness of your loved ones death. All the pain racked through me again of how the loss first felt. I was nauseated and wanted to break down into tears. He said he was shot twice also, but was doing much better even though they hadn't expected him to live. He then went on to the business part of his call.
Do I have a right to feel this horrible pain again? He had his wife of nearly 55 years that he loved dearly die, and I had no where close to that amount of time together. But pain and loss is the same. It hurts, aches and makes you want to crawl under a blanket in bed. He did say something that made me feel a bit better. He told me he said I love you to his wife 20-30 times a day so he knows that never did she have a second to doubt his love and that she was struck in the heart by two bullets and died instantly, but he knew she knew he loved her to the last breath.
So, I take this as another reason to live each day fully. Never miss a moment to tell your loved ones that you love them, never take for granted the time you have together. If someone does leave you at least you don't have to go through life saying "I wish I had one more moment so I could say, I love you."
I so much loved what I had, but also love what I have today. It is not the same, but it is also special.
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