Time goes by but......

It has been 10 months, sometimes, it feels only like 10 hours, other times 10 years.  People try and move on.  We try to put on a brave face and act like we are healing.  Not happening for me yet.  Everything is still so painful.  I can't stop thinking how safe and sure of my future I had been.  Was it a lie?  Was it nothing but pipe dreams?  Who knows.  I do know I do not want to think about all my plans not happening.  I have set a goal of just one or two things at a time.  Right now, it's passing a state exam for work.  Then I will think further out afterwords.  One step at a time.  Really quite true.